I just want some nice kind feedback on my problem.?

First of all, I would say try going to a therapist and see if they can't help you talk about your problems any (don't take medication unless you really want to). Next, maybe you should try by taking small steps each day to do what you enjoy. When your brain is fried from homework, try taking a walk. If you're bored with an ignment or have time in between, try writing down some ideas for a book or sketching some characters. Maybe you could try D&D with your friends if theyre into that kind of thing? You need to know a bit about the game to DM, but it can be pretty fun to create your own characters and adventures. The books are expensive and it takes awhile to make characters but you can download the 3.5 version books on torrent.